Let’s Linger Longer and Fall in Love



Years ago, I told my goddaughter that I’m choosing a guy who is good in math. Growing up, I suffered from a learning disability that made it difficult for me to understand math. Now that I am married to a smart engineer, I appreciate the time he gives his wife when it comes to explaining complex problem solving concepts. Our quality time now consists of crunching numbers, creating spreadsheets & planning for our future. When your partner has patience to teach you & spend a Saturday evening to help me absorb new information, I really find that amazing. Our future kids are really lucky because their papa will teach them a lot.


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Wake Up! • It's time to get excited about the day ahead and feel good about yourself and the life you are creating! • When you feel good everything else around you starts to fall into place and you start to feel more confident and certain about the future! • So how do you start feeling good about yourself and your life? • By taking Action! • By making your own health and wellbeing your highest priority and taking great care of the body you have been blessed to live in! • By making consistently good choices with your diet, eating lean, eating clean and eating for energy! • By getting consistent rest every night and waking up and investing the first 90 minutes of the day on your personal development, growth and the things that make you happy! • By being a positive person who makes others smile and laugh and contributes every day to making the world a better place! • By having a plan for your life and goals that inspire you and motivate you to do your best and be your best every single day! • By exercising your will power and being disciplined and conscious of your choices and decisions throughout the day…so you know that you are in control of your life! • By believing that life is beautiful and that there is always something amazing and wonderful around the corner! • When you feel good within yourself and yourself you will start to feel good about your life and the world around you! • Make it a Beautiful Day! Every Day!

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theyoungdivorceeIf you’re struggling, please read this at least once a day. I promise it does get easier







I have been forgetting a lot lately most especially last week. We missed something on the schedule for Saturday morning and I also forgot to call one of my friends so that I can visit her at her place before she moves. My neurology consult is still scheduled for November and hopefully a Stanford neurologist can see me earlier. This is really frustrating. Good thing my mom reminds me about the time and my doctor’s appointment on a daily basis. I don’t know what my life would be like without my husband and my mom.

I failed all the time when I was in high school and early part in college but graduated with honors when I completed my college & master’s degrees in California. When I have kids, I will not pressure them to be A students. I will make sure that if they have difficulty understanding any concepts that their papa & I will be there to help them. There are so many things I strongly disagree with in high school & my former university that makes the student feel so inferior compared to the rest of their batch mates. They would separate students based on their math abilities. So does that mean if you are not a genius, then you’ll end up with the low achievers? My point is, at a young age, I felt such a failure because I did not get the academic support that was provided to honor students. Instead of giving everyone the same opportunity, why not also provide the same chance to everyone else? Each student is unique that possesses hidden talents. If I keep on dwelling on the fact that I am a total failure based on the fact that I am the slowest reader in class or that I have a math learning disability, then I wouldn’t be able to reach my potential.

“Colleges today are trying to deal with a substantial suicide risk among students and growing rates of depression and anxiety. On my most optimistic days, I wonder whether campus mental health would improve if more classes were designed to encourage participants to support one another. Would students be better off if they saw classmates as people who had their back, rather than as people who might stab them in the back?”



The nurse practitioner whom I spoke with weeks ago mentioned that I was upset that I did not get restrictions when it comes to Endometriosis. I think a provider should look into the whole patient history and try to understand why the patient is upset.

I am upset because I suffer everyday. I am unable to do the things a normal person can do. When she mentioned that there were restrictions for endometriosis patients like me, I did my research and found out :

“Survey data from one hundred and seven women with self-reported, surgically diagnosed endometriosis showed that living with this disease may be characterized by physical limitations that disrupt health, work and daily life.”

So how can she generalize that there are no limitations available for a patient who has fibromyalgia and endometriosis?

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Am I expected to live a normal life even with excruciating pain & expect my husband or an employer to live with my medical condition?


Having a combination of chronic illnesses is like having a full time job. You meet with your medical health team regularly & you have to make sure your schedule matches theirs. I hope my corgi girl can manage her mama’s schedule because it’s getting pretty crazy. I am booked all week & meeting with at least 4 doctors. I was able to move my MRI appointment tonight. Sometimes I really wish I can just function at work & at home and not have all these symptoms.

I am in so much pain today. It’s good thing hubby worked from home so he can take me to my MRI appointment tonight.